Awesomeness!

I have spent the last 24 hours trying to figure out what I would write my first post about.  It hit me this morning that I wanted to write about the stupid birth control pill.

I had been off the pill for the last year.  It was my incentive to not engage in sexual activity(not that it worked all that well).  I felt like I needed to rid my body of the effects of the pill, since I had been on it for over 10 years.  BLAH BLAH BLAH.  I was going through a period of time where I needed to get to know the “REAL ME.”

Anyways….

In January, I went to the doctor’s for my physical.  I had just started a new relationship (that is a whole other story) and I decided that at some point I may want to….well, you know.  So I explained those details to the lovely Dr. Shirely and he made the decision to put me on the same pill that I had always been on.

So that night, I started on the pill.  The next morning, I felt a little groggy but I just thought it was normal.  I remember my sister complaining about the fact that she felt horrible on the pill and that was why she was no longer on it.  I truly cannot remember what it felt like the first time I went on it, but I do not remember it being a bad experience.  As the week went on, I felt pretty bad.  I figured it was just my body needing to get used to something new.  No worries.

A couple of weeks went by.  I really did not feel well, but then again, I remembered what my sister had said.   I had my ‘time’ and I was an emotional wreck.  I am NOT a crier and yet….I spent half of every day bawling my eyes out.  I got my feelings hurt if someone did not talk to me.  Seriously, it was a mess.  The strange thing is, besides the emotions being out of control, I felt better.  I was not tired.  I did not feel like I was going to throw up.

So, beginning of this week, I started back on the pill.  Monday morning, I was exhausted.  I figured it had to be caused by the fact that I had gotten up 2 hours early (again, another story).  The rest of the week, I was grumpy and tired.  It was a mess.

I decided that it HAD to be the pill.  So this morning, I did not take it.  I do not feel sick all the time.  I am still grumpy but I am not tired.  I figure the rest will go away with time.

There is no way that people feel like this when they start taking the pill…..NOBODY would be on it.  My mom says that I should discuss all of this with the doctor, maybe the dosage was too strong.  Whatever.  I do not enjoy feeling icky.   I cannot be a good mother, boss, employee, PERSON when I feel like this.